So I’ve named this blog post Dear Diary because thats exactly where I felt like I was writing. Lol.
So it’s been a year since a close family friend commited suicide and it had me thinking that whilst most are in high spirits around this time of year, not everybody is.
A time where if you have lost somebody or don’t have family or even friends it seems now it would be highlighted and you could feel more isolated and alone than ever. If this is you please please know you’re not alone, if you’re reading this that means you have access to the Internet which is a great start for reaching out to people. You can find clubs or classes that may be great for you to join. Or even if it’s reaching out to a friend, sometimes you have to put your ego to the side and do it. Ask for help.
I remember last year feeling more alone than ever as I was changing and so was my lifestyle and although I love and adore my friends there were certain conversations that I just couldn’t have with them. That’s where Instagram came in and I was blessed to be connected with so many like minded people and people I could also learn from. It’s all about reaching out. I also started going to boot camp and now I go to gymnastics (btw I am not flexible and fall flat on my face most of the time! Haha) but I’ve made some life long friends, not to mention feeling fitter and healthier. I now have 1-1 yoga with a beautiful young lady who again I also feel will be in my life for a very long time. It’s all about pushing your comfort zone and getting out there.
I’ve also recently felt there is so much pressure amongst us to make next year so much better than this one. Which don’t get me wrong isn’t necessarily wrong but I know some of my friends feel super lost and don’t even know where to begin and I for one started to feel overwhelmed with how I could top this year, which will be hard.
To help me with my new year I sat down and wrote where I want to be this time next year, what I would have wanted to accomplish. Now don’t be afraid to aim high! Last year I wrote I wanted to be on radio and be in a magazine amongst other stuff but please believe both of those came true!
The key is to be gentle but honest with yourself, focus on you and your growth. Don’t worry too much on how far your friend is getting, instead use their journey for inspiration rather than allowing it to put you down or make you feel like you are under achieving.
If you have past issues then I would always recommend speaking to somebody or finding a positive outlet, I’m yet to have counselling but I’ve realised my outlet is anything to do with exercise and meditation. So I make time for these. I’m a mother, a single one at that, I work part time, run pick me up inc but still find time to do things I know I love. I have battled with self harming since I was 11 and so I know it is vital to find time to do things that allow me to release any tension or negative energy.
I wrote this post this evening because it’s been weighing heavy on my heart that we put too much pressure on ourselves to have it all together and that alone can make us feel down or like we are not doing enough.
You don’t have to feel alone, you are powerful and so much stronger than you think. Every day is your day. Reach out and get the support you need. Never be embarrassed or afraid.