An open letter to the girl who loves too much.
To the girl who laughs a little too loud, who wears her heart on her sleeve, smiles even though she could have been crying last night and loves like she’s never been hurt.
The last guy left without saying goodbye and here you are yet again learning to turn your pain into power and accept an apology you never received.
You question was you too much? How did he just change his mind? Was it something you said? Did you smother him? You have been left unbalanced and you’re trying not to fall.
I mean he made out he liked you so you of course followed his lead. But babygirl if I could say anything to you now it would be that just because he started playing his song you didn’t have to dance to his beat.
I’m not saying it’s your fault, I’m sure you’ve done nothing wrong except for yet again love another man that has come along. People can only meet you as deep as they have met themselves.
You feel silly for thinking he could be the ‘one’, you look at old pictures- big smiles and good vibes and you question was it all a lie? Are you a fool? Is he laughing at you?
You torment yourself and start to pick at your flaws, you then somehow convince yourself it is your fault, you deserved it, you was too easy or maybe you think you asked too many questions? Maybe you opened up too quick? Did you share too much? Now you feel embarrassed, gave away your secrets to somebody who doesn’t even care to look your way.
But whilst all of this is whirling around your mind I ask you one thing… when you are truly happy within yourself do you just go around destroying things? No you don’t. So whilst you may feel angry, hurt maybe even regretting ever being involved with them. Just know the issue doesn’t really lay with you.
You showed up just being you and maybe it was too much, maybe your love was too real but anyone you are too much for just isn’t for you. So don’t sit and start wondering how you can change. Looking at the timeline wanting to look like ‘her’ you look like you and you are enough. Perfectly imperfect just how you were intended to be.
Send love to those who have hurt you, forgive not because they deserve it but because you deserve peace of mind. So to you the girl who loves too much, don’t you dare now hide. Take your time and heal but please don’t let anybody who doesn’t know how to love fool you into thinking that this is what love is.
I see you in a few months, you think about him less and you smile more but every so often your mind will wonder to the boy who left with no explanation. You may even miss him, that’s fine but don’t confuse missing someone with needing to have them in your life. Love from a distance and forgive whole heartedly. Let yourself be free.
To the girl who loves too much….
Just know you can never love too much.